The dark day..

why do we always seem to blog about the sad part of our life more than the happy ones? Life is complicated, cliche i know..
Another sad chapter happened to me just today.. I dont want to gve full details about it.. I wanted to, but i know it wont change a thing..

'if u think u have given me so much leeway all tis while, u havent actually'

I miss being happy

Now whats left of me is just lonliness.. Im not really a holy person but atleast i know what not to do.. Im stubborn but i still know when to give up and to forgive (well, at least i try..)
You would say youre forgetful, but are you being forgetful when u intentionally hide things away coz your mindset tells u that am ALWAYS negative? Are u being equal when we were fightin, u met a random person the next day? Are u being equal when u promised not to do things i dislike but when we fight u doing it? are u being equal when u treated me like a piece of trash? Are u being equal when am at right, u still wont let yourself lose coz its your 'defence mechanism' and i have to get over it? Are u being equal when am trying to be civil and mengalah but u knock me down over and over again instead?

Thank you?

I dont need nobody to judge me. Its funny when u think i always knock you down when we quarrel.
Just admit your wrong and explain it civily.who put more fuel in the fire? If we know that we are at wrong, so dont be too stubborn to say SORRY! Maybe u dont realise that YOU also knock me down at times.so what do u undestand by 'equality' then??

Just a thought

i can not tolerate people who cheat.. But humanly speakin i sometimes think white lie is needed. But not always. I mean, when u think u can speak the truth, just spill it. Dont excuse your forgetfulness to save yourself out of troubles.. Then that will become an absolute lie..
And when you quarrel, dont always think that your partner is afraid that you're cheating.. Sometimes all they want is just purely your explainations on related matters and them being insecured and paranoid that youre being dishonest (note this down, honesty is one of the ingredients needed in love) so logically, dishonesty = less lovesparks = break up.
So you dont expect your partner to 'chill' when this happens. Perhaps what u must do is to convince them that u love em.. Its a very 'Simple' solution yet due to stubborness and the desire to always be the victor, aint no all people wise enough can do this.

last but not least

How would it feel to be knocked down when all u want is just a simple apology? How would you feel to be given an option when initially back in the past you already told that person that you were taken but he/she still insisted to accept that fact and wanted to give it a try? How would you react when you found out he/she did somethin bad behind your back? How would you react when he/she always think that you think he/she hadnt done anythin for you when all u want is just appreciation? How would you feel when sometimes eventhough youre at right side but he/she wouldnt want to admit it but to win it instead?

Love is really complicated..


Selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa..

mixed feelings.

Life is full of unexpected surprises, indeed. For the past few months, i thought i would never get employed but i was wrong.. In just a blink ov eye, im officially a working man now. Been working approximately 20days already. I should not complain but since its my first time working experience, it really is hard to get used to the working ambience, the staff and i hafta reschedule everyting includin my bed time, eating time etc. And that explains why you cant find me on msn. Sorry if u guys feel neglected. Am just so busy w work.
Anyhoo, eventhough i kinda like this job ov mine, i hafta admit, sometimes it sucks to be in the service industry especially if u happen to meet cranky psychotic customers who think they know shits and get mad at you for no good reasons *sighs* but really, i realise this kinda job can definitely help u in managing your anger. Huhu. right~
i didnt get the chance to hang out w any ov my friends since i start working so again, pardon me for that also.. oh oh.. I love my colleagues!they are so fun and bitchy~~ huhu some ov them only though.
Enough w the happy bits. Mmm i feel so down tonight. Feel sorta inappreciated to be exact. Mmm oh well, i think i should just sleep it off. Will update again when i have time~ tc.

somehow i will

I needed a dream when it all seems to go bad..
I needed a dream, to make me strong..
U were my dream.. But now ... I just need a miracle..

We've lost the spark?

*sighs* my heart aches.
u made me thought u could make me happy but what u showed me now is just another heartbreak.
if i were u, i wouldnt be here..

when the heart breaks.

i missed my childhood life - although i couldnt remember totally what id been through. those years were great. i have no shit to think about. i could cry, make noises and run away from problems i caused whenever i wanted to and had all those beautiful things that i desired. but things are different now.... Broken inside, i need you as a strength to survive, like the air i breathe.. but where are u during my darkest moments? vanished and drifted away to an unknown place, nowhere to be found.. say ure sorry but see if that can heal this wounds.. i trusted you but time will tell me if its worth the sacrifice.. Earn it if u want it to be..

not quite a farewell.

Mmhm.. *clears throat* ouch! am having sorethroat and i dont like it. it annoys me and, my right leg hurts because ov the exhausting hiking at bkt shahbandar last saturday. yes! Been 4 hell days for me. even worse, after hiking and bathed then tarus headed to my cuz's belated birthday party/bbq. Gylaa.. i was very lethargic man!!
and people w their obvious-surprised-looks said that im getting more fleshy now =.=' aint my fault.. Food likes me.. *chuckles* but of course i denied that statement. am not fleshy, just.. err come on! whats the right term? Think think think. Its SADANG aka not fat nor skinny!! In between. :D oh oh. Dye, i read ur bloggie just now.. We (on behalf ov the rejects) also miss u.. youre one lucky gurl.. Hope u will enjoy being the bridemaid.. Trust me, i used to being the groom-man (?) twice and it wasnt that exciting. Huhu coz u have to be less attractive takut steal her spotlight krg. Huhu imagine all eyes on u instead ov the bride *laughs* that kinda happened to me once.. am not proud ov it but people thought i was the one who getting married!! am like 'blame the makeup artist already~~' *bitchy tone* lol jk. oh.. i chatted w Shirley last night n she said 'harm, i miss ure crazy jokes' huhu cute~~
btw.. payday sudah! cant wait to go to miri.. i wana dye my hair, go to the clubs and have fun, fun, more fun and more more fun *smiles*
what else? *thinks* oh lady, be strong ayte!
Guess am outta ideas already.. Bh assalam :]

no time to cry coz imma heartbreaker.

am bored and stil awake. drowsy already thou. i just finished watchin the golden compass and mariah carey's concert. U can tell how bored i am now ayte? Huhu. i dont know whats wrong w me today. some odd-i-dont-know-thing bothers me.. maybe am just plain tired? Antah eh :/
oh oh i went to the mall masa tadi afternoon. am so happy. Hehe coz se xperia 1 punya price turun sudah :D yippey!
Mmm apalagi uh? nothing much happened bah lately. just the usual habits : get up, wash up, eat, tv, on9, eat, tv, eat, eat, eat, n eat. Lol. Yeah im bigger now. Seriously need to lose some weight.. Coz takut jeans na muat lagy. Hehe
bah, aku nato kan write apa lagy. I just wish everyone will achieve their hope and dreams.. Insyallah. Bbye :] assalam~

i see myself as an angel..

heres some ov the things ive done lately.. (gosh! a very lame opening.. :i ) erk.
ive been very busy uknow~ pardon me for that. anyhoo, i was invited by shuif to someone's birthday party at empire beach on last friday. saw few people that i knew of.. ( personal comment: the party wasnt reali exciting like what i expected but i got myself hurt while playing the banana boat. We -fizah, amal, shuif and me almost got drowned!! Twice!! That was OMG!! To me~ *eyes widen* Reali thankful to fizah's friend. She saved me. Yeah, i dont know how to swim or float myself. ) but hey, am still alive. Huhu. Nasib jua pkai the lifejacket.. F not, id be eaten by sharks. Huhu over?
mmhm moving on, am still unemployed :/ huhu its so sad. I mean, now i feel demotivated to study. Mcm, eventhough u have results yg handal or bagus p payah jua dapat kaja. somebody has to do somtin abt it! Mbri takut eh. Less and less opportunity sudah. *sighs*
apa lagi kan d buat ane?im reali running out of ideas :/. aku mau persian cat. My hamsters cute and my rabbits basar sudah. Huhu i think mybe one day i wana build a zoo :D randomness!
Bh am tired tapi Aku mau Se Xperia 1 or or n97. Huhu majal aku uh xp

regards to all, aslkum.

Dan aku akan terus...

O shoot! its already 1.27am. im still wide awake.. No good! hmm.. Ooh am just so tired today.. woke up late.. Needed body massage badly.
Tadi ujan labat. Scaryy man. Ada banjir jua. Hmm.. And banyak urg got sick.. Fortunately am good.
Ohh.. i hate them so much.. Argh!! And excuse me, u dont pretend as if nothing has happened. Karma pays. U want a drama? Here's the drama.. I jst hate you, you and you!! what u did is unforgivable. Oh dont u ever dream am scared ov u.. Go to hell!

I seriously need a chill pill. And lady, am ok, alright.. still in one perfect piece. But i think am holdin too much grudge.. well, aint that bad though.. Grudge + rage + revenge : satisfaction. Huhu call me crazy now. antah eh. i dont believe the term 'rationality' anymore.
Oh to that person, i knew u were trying to do it your way, but please dont vex me again. am a human. sometimes am just too vulnerable and stubborn to think straight. so yeah.


Case closed and am out.

love, again.

honestly im so emotional right now. Only god knows why..
*sighs* ok~ moving on.. l suddenly thought about love triangle issue.. whose fault is it really? will it ever peacefully work? Is it human nature to have more than one emotional partner(s) at one time? why does this happen? does it happen because ov lacking ov attention from one side, boredom or lust? Is he/she being unfaithful if he/she has more than one partner that know about it but treat them the same?
Well Personally, i think it will work depending on several factors which include :
@ understanding
@ honesty
@ compromise
@ high level ov trust
@ a lot ov patience
and the list goes on..
But til when it lasts, depends on the people themselves.
Its their choice and happiness.. So who are we to judge?

like a glass you break my heart.

am not okay tonight. shit happened.

say to me things i wanna hear

hmm its just so weird when some people have the guts to come and cry to us saying that theyve realised their mistakes, yadey yaadey yaaadey~ but on our back, they just wouldnt stop trying to make us suffer.. I wont shed a tear for these kind ov people really.. why? coz i know its USELESS and a waste o friggin time.. Yes!!
Anyhoo, i know i shouldnt hold tis grudge forever but i just cant help it.. Am prepared.. I know what i'll do if what i imagined ever happens .. Afterall, god is MORE POWERFUL and FAIR..
To lady: dont worry abt me.. I mish you. I mish going to skewl and waitin fo u.. Huhu good memories~~

unexpected news from her.

despite ov all the tribulations ive been through, hers is even worse.. well, i must say the same reali.. BUT at least i learnt from past experience and she didnt unfortunately!
am talking about one ov my close friends.. As i see, life is like a piece ov clean white paper.. its us who should decide on how to paint and draw it w our own preferable colour, symbols, shapes etc.. whatever thats written or drawn will dictact our life literally.. In her case, she did it badly.. she had options but she chose to blow it.. i hope my poor gurl realisez her mistakes and learns to be responsible for what she did.. well, at least dont take things for granted..
All in all, her life is screwed!! Anyhoo, its already nearing april, i must find work and be independent! Just wish me the best ov luck guys.. And to lady, i salute u. Ure such a strong person. I just think i cant predict u anymore. seriously, who could sincerely laugh and stand on the ground not crying but feeling relieved when he/she just broke off? Huhu well, she did.. u did it!! Am jst wondering who u missing right now.. And mahal q??? I sense somethin fishy~~~ :] huhu is there somethin i should know about??

P.s i miss you, you, you & you..

my heart bleeds again :(

I have had enough. I have done a lot! Now im so confused.. I dont know who to believe anymore. I know i should be optimistic but i bet there will be more dramas coming up soon.

NO!!

I dont mumble or spit when i talk~ huhu random i know..
I dont have so much things to ramble here actually but as mentioned by dye on her latest post, there been a lot of self-accidents lately. Yes!! In fact i just witnessed one early tis morning whilst otw home from bandar.. it was scary.. Thank god am not really traumatized.. Oh before i leave, tonight i will be going to a friend's birtday party.. Hope theres food *duh~ of course there is* huhu i gained more fats.. :s
bh bh.. Assalam..

my hamsters DONT miawww~

i never thought having a pet(s) is such a hard work. Really, trust me it is one hell ov a job *wipes tears*
now one ov my female hamsters gave birth to 7 litter ov pups again.. *lurus ka englis saya ne?*scratches head* not that am unhappy, but tis will mean i have more cages to clean. *screams out loud*
thank god My voice is still ok. *clears throat* Huhu cant help but to be dramatic here for a bit. anyhoo, ada urg mengigau dmlm. It was fudgin funny.. Mum told me.. NOT! Scary would be the right word. Erk!
Ok am sleepy already. I thought tis week dapat jmp the rejects but apparently no planner.. So nada~ well yeah, next week? *looks at em gurls*
bbye~

.... MIA

Yes, i finally got my way back here.. i know u people missed me so much *perasan* huhu. wondering why i went m.i.a these past few weeks ?.. well actually ive been busy preparing things for my engagement ..................................................... *drum rolls* NOT!! *evil laughs* nada lah.. Meditating saja and thinkin of ways to get rid of hassles. Its like your house bh, the older it is, more renovation is required kan? so yeah.. am prepared..
Argh. I still havent got a job. No job means no dinero.. *sighs* being penniless sucks!! Random i know~ *change topic* Ok ok now i know the thing that am gona say will cause a rash to *laughs* and provoke some women/gurls out there but m jst so confused why most, but not all women plg, complain about inequality ov opportunity and sexism in workplace while in reality you see, there are more room ov opportunity for em. for instance: cd shops, they only hire female assistants and also in banks, its women that are more likely to get the interview or the job than men. Yes!! They tend to get job MORE easily than men NOWADAYS. Hmm.. Guess the world has changed huh? Afterall am jst unlucky, jobless guy whos wanting for a miracle to happen on one ov these days.. *wishful thought*


" sometimes revenge aint the sweetest thing you can do.. the time u took to hold a grudge, might have been the prefect time u could learn to forgive.. " - Harm '09


Hope to see my people soon esp lady, therejects and thee.. Tc.

Promises.

I wonder why is it hard for some people to keep their promises?and is it fair to keep ours while the counterparts fail to keep theirs? Why do u say promises in the first place when u know that u wont be able to fulfil it?wait, are u even trying?
Is taking a break help to improve the relationship or will it blow it?why do u say those things when u actuali dont mean it and in the end regret it?why do u turn the table around at ur partner when things seem gotten worse?is breaking up the best idea u could ever think for the both ov u when its obvious the hassle can be eradicated?

sometimes....

Yes! sometimes small matter can become gigantic to some due to lack ov compromising. Its like how one tiny cell collects another cells to eventually develop a whole complete organism.. But if the system lacks, then the development will be affected. Life sucks, definitely! we all should know that.
How i wish mine would be a lot simpler and easier. oh as if! Different people have uncommon solutions to overcome their problems. Some would say lousy things without thinking and regretin it in the end but the wise one always think deep before saying bad. So i learn from past experiences that decisions must be thought thoroughly, analysed and evaluated carefully coz we cant turn back time and that its easy to forgive but the scars will always remain...

what hurts the most

when the person you love neglects u, chooses his/her friends over u in any kind of situations such as during ur weakest time, when he/she cannot handle his/her stresses or temper and uve got to bear w it so he/she can peacefully get over it..

sucks.

I got so much things to ramble about in here. firstly, i love my hamsters and my baby rabbit, kiro. HAHA random i know~ secondly, i fleetingly hate some people. thirdly, i solemnly miss some people. fourthly, is it alright to be superstitious? should i wear an amulet o somethin to protect myself from any source of evil power? *faiz, ure needed to loose my puzzle-ness here. yes? HAHA since u commented on my 'love at first sight' post the other day so i thought u might as well comment on tis one also xp *
oh oh, lady, am so sorry that we couldnt make it to pantai muara yesterday. I knew u had a blast~
emm.. got lotsa things to be said here, but NOT that i run out ov time, its jst that i dont think its right to be amplified here. i got problems actually but... yeah shit happens... so, any queries just gimme me a hit.

bye, and seeya i dont wanabe ya~ xp

What u see aint always what u get :]

Lady, i mish u too. Huhu

ezun, thanks.Yeah hopefully it will last long. I miss to hang out w the rejects. Eh eh, gez whud? I always tejumpa c zatil d tempat ny kaja. Huhu and shes got a bf dh. I saw em dating n she confessed to me jua. Huhu

ok ok, i must leave nw. I cnt help to miss many people.

fangs so muchy much!

i appreciate the ipod nano, the baby rabbit *really cutely petite* the books oh everytin really. Hehe. Love ya.



'people dying and cryin to find one but you got two' = quoted by **5.

the fantasy is over.

i miss you. spell my name correctly then i'll come to you.

Scr. Xoxo

love at first sight?

do u believe in that? is it true that hatred can eventually change into love and otherwise?
why must it be a mutual consent? can we learn to love? why do we love when we know that in the end consquence is that we'll get hurt? why do we bother to put 101% effort when we know it will gone one day? why cant we understand or see love?so what makes it work? How do you know that your partner loves you oh-so-much?why do the butterfly feelings in your stomach occur everytime you and your partner are about to meet each other?is being understandin, responsible and committed, enough to keep the relationship safe?


well, i still love you regardless :) it might not show but just so you know its real.

am happy when ure happy :)

i miss your face, i miss everytin about you.. i even miss the arguements that we wouldave from time to time..

i soo miss you.

a big show-off

YES you are!

Thanks so much..

the new light in life.

i reali think " me and my heart, we got issues " .. but thanks to u fo always been there fo me :) dont know how else to show my gratitude to you. Enough said, what have i been doin fo the past few weeks? well, nothing stink, nothing bad, just a straight-full-week hang out session. can u see how boring my life is a.t.m? Huhu. Emm, i reali need to get a job a.s.a.p
so yeah, been to icc's and ubd's exhibition meeting lotsa friends and acquaintances. I must say the programmes offered by ubd this year are phenomenal, quite interestin and challengin.. am delighted that they offer the so-called tuning program in each and every programmes. At least i will get the chance to being sent to abroad university, insyallah.
Oh, guess what happened on last wednesday? To make it brief, my sista asked a favour from me and mr panda to do her S.E.A assignment, so we did. We spent, though i only proofread everytin, literally 6hours doing it (from 7pm-12AM) fuhh.. It was reali tiring. I could see fractures in their backbones.. they were hairy and could also see their red teary eyes.. Oh wait! that was when they were about to change to lycans .. Huhu lame~ guess ive been watchin too much vamps n lycans movies xpp
anyhoo, all in seriousness, yatah when we were done doin it, the next task was to print the end product ( note: it was already 12+AM) so we went to the nearby cafe that we thought to be opened 247 but we were deceived. It was closed. Pfftt..
Then disappointed we went home to eat nasi katok. Gila~ lapar x uh.. Just before we open the nasi katok wrapper, my sis asked me to call lady if shes still awake and have a printer with ink to print her work. Persistent much. and i did, oh luckly, my savior, my lovely bestfriend picked up my call and Tadaaa~ she got ink! Huhu apakan? So yeah, we then went to her place. while sis and mr panda spendin their time printing the thingy majigies, lady and i had a time together, (bowh.. Pls be alert, and note that there were 4 ov us and we are innocent. Lol jk) i mean we had fun updatin each other w our life and her work stories. Hehe. Then around 2AM, everythin had been printed out so we went home. it was tiring. Sis you owe me big this time!!

Ok, am out.

P.s izun, huhu congrates. I think i know who the guy is. Karit you xpp

are u satisfied now?

do you ever feel as if ure a destructive volcano thats about to erupt, engulf and kill whatever things infront ov you? Yes, am that angry now..

Specially Dedicated to you and ******.. Twit! the past has made me a stronger and a better person but it doesnt mean ure forgiven.

is it my mistakes?

ammm sooooo bloody stressed rooight now~~

......................

i stayed up till late night YESTERDAY just to finish my ucas application BUT rupanya, the unis am applying to are not recommended.. arghhh!!! How screwed is that??

BUT, a big thank you to mr panda.. without you, i wouldnt be able to have a wonderfully winning p.s, though unfortunately it wont never be used :'[

ohh, just to share a bit of information, TODAY, 5th feb is a big day fer me.. huhuuuu vague i knoww~~ xp

i laff you..

am fine, thank you

I can see u pretending. I can feel u mocking. Oh how could people change so drastically??
Today, i went to skewl. am so delighted that i could bumped into the complete rejects. Huhu. Apart from them, i also met fark, bubu, kelvin and the acquintances.. and I know lotsa students are tryin their luck to apply for scholarship. Emmm, i think i have to consider it.. Btw, gud luck yall *winks* god knows my post is boring, so just ignore it..
P.s am going to uk exhibition at rizqun later. Hope everytins fine.

Lack of Attention

tonight somehow i feel like am just a dark shadow passing by you. If only you understand how deep it hurts.

.... the rise of lycans.

My start ov the day was goin to the clinic w mr bear to get mc. Then had our late lunch at/in lemon grass restaurant. It was on him. Huhu I coulda sworn the food there was nice. The service is quite good too. After done filling up our stomachs, mr bear did dvdshoppin. I didn buy any dvds thou. But but i did buy gelato. Huhu. Then we went to the pet shop to see if hamsters are still sold or not. But there were none. Laku banar~ heran saya. So our next destination was the mall coz He wanted to eat waffles but we ended up eatin the sweet corn instead. Huhu selalu cematu. Sudah inda tercari. Anyhoo, Do u av any idea where we can find nyumilicious-finger-licking-good waffles in brunei? Mcm payah.. Emmm.. Then around 7+pm saya balek. Jalan again to mall w me sis n mr panda lapas atu.. Had our dinner at/in foodcourt. Oh btw, fyi its 11+pm already. Just got back home from watchin a movie w my sis n mr panda few mins ago.. Am so tired and my eyes soo need some shut down now BUTT i cant just as yet coz my annoyin bro is chattin w his fone that continuously produces this f*cking i-wont-let-u-sleep-well beep. Argh! I need a chill pill and tons ov sleeping pills urgent!!
Oh, exams results are freaking me out.. So yeah, am out.. Tc

"i wanna see n*ked pics already~" mr panda, 2009 lol

i love my lil ebichu and chan.. they are literally my life now.. my mornings and nights are specially different now w em around.. *In case ov your curiousity, they are actually my HAMSTERS* huhu.
All in seriousness, as we know, its been raining heavily since last week leading to flood, blackouts and brownouts everywhere.. Really bad monsoon..
Anywho, i met ayen at/in supasave and apparently she works there. U go go gurl~ huhu. To ezun, if u really wana get the scholarship, u gotta redo the ps then. I know u can do it. To lady, cant believe ure nightmare became true.. Al-fatihah to ur late aunt. Oh btw, thanks for the tips.. Hehe.. To dye, come on gurl, update tah~~
ok ok, i wanna log out already. Tc guys.

Unagi.. ?

You guys must be wonderin why i put that post.. Emm as said by mr panda, only F.R.I.E.N.D.S freaks will understand the 'unagi' jokes.. Lame~~ HAHA too bad i seldom watch it.. I only watch something that gives me inspiration.. For instance, emm.. *sensored* movies.. LOL
anywho, sorry fo the late updates. And due to laziness, i just wana keep tis post simple.. I actually had been here and there these past few days.. Done this and that also.. interestingly, am not lookin forward to exam results coz i know it wont be satisfyin anyway.. in fact, am just worried that i wont get the jobs am applyin for.. Oh btw, i finally got the hamsters *broad smile* and i love em so much.. They are so beautiful, though i sometimes got bitten by one of em.. Mean hams! Arrrrr
A big thank you to lady's cousin.. And good luck to those whos waitin fo exam results.. We will find it out soon enough..
" we live together, we die together " *walks away*
am out. Tc

Updates!!!!

Thursday 01/08/2009

i was out w mr bear and blue. We went to hua ho manggis to get me lil sister a present for her birthday. My first option was to buy her a barbie doll but big sister forbade me so i had to go w my other option i.e buying me lil sis new pink clothes.. I bought her 5new pairs.. Huhu Yadey yadey yadey~~ had our dinner at/in wywy.. And then, went to bear's place to rest and sleep.

Friday 01/09/2009

i woke up real early and was surprised by lady.. Huhu. She told me tinkerbell skewl needs new employees and both ov us are applyin 4 it.. M reali hoping that il get it.. And and, panda got called for an interview at RBTS tis 12th.. Gud luck~ and of course, it was also my lil sis's 8th birthday~ huhu. Unlike last year, this year's celebration was held in a restaurant in gdg (i forgot what its called).. Only some cuzs n friends were invited thou.. It included si panda.. Huhu.. M glad that u werent feeling awkward that night *winks* anyhoo, the party was started w doa selamat recited by my uncle.. Then, apa lagi, dinner time.. Emmm, comments about the food? Not bad lah. Id say the sambal was nyummy.. The party ended at around 945pm kali then panda, sis and i went to the mall.. Sis went to summit to eye on her to-be new shoes.. Lawa lah the shoes that she picked.. Its purple.. Wicked.. Oh, we, out ov nowhere bumped into si blue and orange.. Huhu. Mental si panda tarus~ marah2 ya.. Then we decided to go home and panda slept over at me place.. It was a great day.. Really

Saturday 01/10/2009

i was out w bear around 4pm.. We went to pizza hut, mall. Huhu craving punya pasal.. *drools* then went jalan2. And suddenly, bumped into......... *i no need to mention here* oh the memories went back slicing every bits ov me.. I was out ov rage.. I could feel my hands shakin.. My brain was full ov curses.. Fuhh.. Luckily i was able to control it.. Enough said! Then i companied bear for groceries shopping. It was fun and tiring, of course.. Around 6+pm, went to a pet shop in lambak and buy my hamster food etc.. Yes! Yes! Finally, i will have a hamster.. Iam superexcited.. Come to me my baby~ huhu.. Moving on, lapas atu went to bear's place again to help him memanyap.. Then rest.. Around 9pm, the others dtg.. Chit chatted n had dinner w em.. Then, i went to bed.. Thats all..

Happy New Year 2009 Everyone~~

*a round ov applause* 2008 had officially gone *exhales*.. It was the i-never-wanna-remember year to me.. I must get a grip n forget and delete all the pain, the misery etc..
i really hope 2009 will bring upon me happiness and most significantly new blessful life.. I wannbe a better person, get a job before i enter uni, work out and build some muscles, get a license and be a witch or murderer * lol, i just exaggerate the last bit xp *
anyhoo, u guys plant new year resolution(s) yet? Better be~~
bh.. Have a blast evryone.. Tc.