shuweef and mr snowman

These guys are B.I.T.C.H.Y~ and and i was curious abt the love note thang for like what, couple hours only? Huhu i have life xuh~ it didnt affect me as much. Buuuuuu~ lmao.

M away for good

Ok first and foremost, lady, i know u wil awes be there for me. Hehe. Sorry i didnt go to skewl today.
Am unwell actually. Been coughing since two days ago.. But no worries, it aint that worse..
Mm.. Sir hadi ada every mondays! Yay! *winks at dye n ezun* oh wait, im suppossed to be grieving now coz i got D for my sociology mock exam. M so disappointed of myself. I know i cudve done better..in fact, way way better.. Sir hadi scolded me coz of my disappointin june n mock exam results.
I know i should not study superficially. I must strive for better results and revise constantly but at the same time try to maintain a healthy condition.. I know i can do it.. I just need to push it to the sky and i need support also.. So yeah now y'all know why i seldom update my bloggie.. Am busy re organising n re doing my personal notes. Wish me luck w alvel and pray for my success. Thanks people.

Emo?

I realised that ive been cruel to people in yesteryears.. i admit sometimes iam selfish and this leads some of my friends to hating and backstabbing me.. i know i strongly deserve it but please give me a room to breathe the air and change whats painted.. i was solemnly disappointed when i found a used-to-be-closed-friend of mine made fun of my june results. Although it was indirectly but the impact of that was really huge on me.. I started to hate and honestly i lose trust to that person. I mean, who would do that to a friend who've had goin through your thicks and thins together? Tell me if ive chosen a lunatic as a friend. what, then, makes a GOOD friend? I soo dont understand people nowadays. they will simply go to u when they desperately want a hand but then they'll leave u strayed when u are thought to be useless in just a blink of eye. seriously such experience is so heart breaking and it is apparently in the top of my must-avoid list..
However.. I can not deny that i still have quite a number of true friends who are not, as i know of, 'talam dua muka'. I really appreciate the unbiased support although i might cause messes here and there but i know that will not change bits of your love for me, yes?yes? i know am so hard to tolerate.. but u guys manage to tame me.. ive grown to be a better person now.. and i know whats there to take and whats to throw.. thanks alot.. Btw Ive been thinkin abt someone lately.. This person was so special to me back then but now we pact up to be so-called friends. I know i was being cruel to tis person then. Most of the time now, anytime i listen to our songs i felt so guilty and honestly i regret that i left you. How i wish i could turn back time. but things happened.. we have to move on for the betterment of ourselves.. I just hope am not forgotten and can still win the heart one day..
Alright, time to go..

it means extra hard work

Mmm.. Results were already out yesterday.. Guess what i got? I scored C's fer business and geo and a sad E fer socio *sighs* the rejects also scored pretty bad results except for miss dye..she rocks! Got straight A's fer business, psycho and socio and a B fer gp, C fer eas *hunny, m typing tis down just to remind me again that ure the smartest among us x) *

i cant afford to lie..am actually super sad and disappointed w what ive got. well, iam grateful plg..at least no U there..but.. Huhu theres always but's.. now i realised that Alevel is demandin and that efforts must be doubled to get what i want i.e scholarship..i need to make the books as my bestfriends from now on..

Oh idk whatever else i wanna type here.. Just, a big congrates to my fellows who've gotten better or satisfying results than me :') seriously i cant wait fer the study leave..wana start doing revision by then..

Mmm..owell, let past be the lesson, and move on is the best remedy.. Alright, squeeze ya later x)

my 10 fav love songs..

* thank god i found you
* i'll be there
* timeless
* i'll light a candle
* dangerously in love
* all over again
* love to be loved
* if you were mine
* always be my baby
* i stay in love

corny? Deal w it.

happy being-grown-ups day to ezun and farky :)

Oh oh its 21st august already.. Hehe a big day fer two ov my closed friends i.e ezun the reject, and farky..

As usual, i sent them burfday mms-es.. Hope it reaches em and makes em smile.. You guys have entered the mysterious adult world now.. So behave maturely and jgn lupa diri.. Exams are ahead ov us.. Hehe puasa and also hari raya.. Get ur license a.s.a.p n cruise w me.. Hehe.. Bh thats all..

Love.. Xoxo

......... simply you ...........

Mmm.. Its 1230am at the moment.. am still wide awake.. Intended to talk w someone on the phone but no green light was given.. so i end up grieving and watchin tv..
A heap ov things linger on my mind.. the disappointment from the stupid rumours and from the heart ache..
Oh lord.. my mood is tilted unstably now.. mybe im just tired? No cant be.. i can be emo at any random times.. I hate tis feelings but what can i do?
I want to write on all the bricks 'I MISS U' and i wish that one falls on your head so that you know how it hurts when you miss someone special like you..
love is intangible.. You can feel it but you cant see it.. But as u become obsessed w each other, u can see that love is like flower. It needs to be watered every single day. It wilts if no proper care is given.. True.. oh i wish i can have you..
Adui.. Ini semua merepek.. Huhu am being corny.. Oh who cares.. Tis is my blog.. Idc if u dont buy me.. Tis is how i expressed my feelings.. Reject it, well not my loss.. I dont bother coz the feeling is true.. Mmm.. Time to remain silent now.. Gtg people..

P.s i catch people's attention bcz i love them but if one day u realise i stop, then you know the drill.. A farewell..

almost got lost..

Ok.. I dont know what to blog now.. Hopefully tis post can be posted.. The reason why i was lackin ov updates is due to the bad connection.. Huhu
anyways, my leg is so sakit now.. Went to bukit shahbndr arnd 5+pm with my sis n two brothers. It was siok bt my two brothers suddnly disappeared n left my sis n i way behind ov em.. I tot my sis knew the way. As we gone further and far.. I asked her tau kah inda where to head to coz we kind lost the people..imagine kami dua saja..wuuu~scary.. Then kami just follow the shoeprints and finally ada tis chinese man tny whether we were lost or not. Yeah we were kinda.. Huhu nasib jua ada ea.. Then we got our way to the car park. Slamat~ huhuhu~
on last friday, another so-called lonely nite for me.. I was alone while waiting for my sis keluar frm d cinema. Were there frm 7pm til 10+pm. Imagine how long i waited for her.. 2+hours long mann.. Crazy! I kbox, ddr n ate alone.. Huhu i felt so left out.. Bt nvm.. At least i SURVIVED.. Lol
oh yeah btw, myb results kuar today.. M nt putting my hopes high but hopefully ada. Im expecting gud grades f not, im dead.. Huhu alright.. I shall stop now.. Tc people :)

I will be :)

There's nothing i could say to you,
nothing i could ever do to make you see,
what u mean to me,
all the pain,the tears i cried,
still u never said goodbye and now i knw,
how far u'd go..

Bridge:
i know i let u down
but it's not like that now,
this time i'll never let u go,

chorus:
i will be, all that u want
and get myself together,
coz u keep me from falling apart,
all my life, i'll be with u forever,
to get u through the day,
and make everythin okay.

I thought that i had everythin
i didnt know what life could bring,
but now i see, honestly
you're the one thing i got right,
the only one i left inside,
now i can breathe, coz u're with me,

bridge:
and if i let you down,
i'll turn it all around,
coz i would never let u go,

repeat chorus :)

ending bridge:
coz without u, i cant breathe,
im not gonna ever, ever let u leave,
you're all i've got, you're all i want, yeah
and without u, i dont know what i'd do,
i can never ever live a day without you here
with me, do u see?
You're all i need..

Repeat chorus :)


p.s: i love this song lyrics so much. It reflects my feelings towards someone right now..

Get well soon

Holla~ ones done. Two more exams to go..*sighs*
bsnss exams paper was quiet ok.. Managed to finish on time.. Oh wait, did i finish? Huhu i left out some ov the calculation bits "s
mmm.. Got geo exam tomrow.. Hopefully i can do it.. I havent read it as of yet.. Krg th.. Now gotta sleep dulu..
Btw, my dad's youngest bro got admitted to the hosp. He had a surgery on his throat thingy. Pity him. Wanted to go to the ward but im busy w exams. Il go there probably on wed.
Alright, m tired already.. Til next time.. Bbye.

3pairs ov baju raya :)

I woke up early today. Arnd 5.25am (i reckon).. Gahh.. Am so lazy.. I knw its gnab a long boring day coz its just plain saturday..

Alright, later at 2+pm my sis wil be going to labuan w her friends. Am nt sho f shes stayin overnight though. My biggest concern is what things she will get for me.. Huhu suspense much.. and of course her safety..(udah atu) Mmmm.. I was intending to write sometin here. But i forgot..*after few minutes ov thinkin* Oh yeah! I have designed three new baju cara melayu tis year; red (a must! Xp), yellow and pink (oh saja pilih colour ane coz i havnt got em colors yet) hehehe. Hopefully tis years raya wil be great.. Neah~ exams time :|

mmm.. Ok.. M lazy to think and type now.. Have fun readin.. Tc..

P.s/ i miss to read the rejects' blog page..

am not supposed to do tis!

Hushh! *finger on my lips* i knw am not supposed to post anythin during tis timeframe.. But my hunch guides me to do so.. So yeah.. Recently nothing special occured to me.. As usual, skewl time.. I escaped gp classes more oftenly these days.. Huhu setan d skulah menghasut. Had trial mock exam on last tues. It was fine dou a lil bit tensed coz i wasnt quiet ready as of yet.. Gahh.. Having stated the qualifyin exams wil embark on tis mond. Andd guess what? Bsnss studies wil be held on that day! Yay! The next day will be geo and the next next day will be socio n gp.. Yayy!! *fake smile* syok eh exams betamu atu.. Mm.. I wonder sapa yg set the goddamn jadual.. *sighs* this means that i must cram my brain to rvise all ov the required topics.. Eh nyusahkn eh!!

Ok.. Move on pls.. Ha! Tadi was lady demotion day (lurus ka toh?) yg penting nya, she was demoted from being an Mp to being a 'normal' student.. Huhu am not implying anytin here xp dont bother abt the inverted commas xp hehe.. Oh its been awhile.. That i didnt read the rejects posts. Sorry guys, if ure readin tis, i just cudnt get thru the page.. Mybe its too fancy?? Lol. And, i was wondering why we were so emo tadi. Talking abt sad love songs. Seriously? That was romantically freaky xp bt liked it dou..

Mm.. B4 i forgot, i went to capers again tadi.. I had 4 dishes includin pizza and the barbeque beef ribs sometin sometin.. *drools* nyaman~ its worth trying.. Bh sapa mau date w me, f we r clueless abt where we should eat at, just go to capers.. Trust me, u wudnt even want to stop coz its so finger-lickin-good. Huhuhu. Yeah. U will want to lick more. Huhu wtf? Yes yes im kinky~ so? Huhu bh bh til then.. Love u readers loadz.. Xoxo

I wont be here.

I will be temporarily inactive for probably 2weeks due to exams fever. And for those who enthusiastically care to know whats happenin to me are welcomed to dial up my number or msg me *broad smiles* tc people. Love you loadz.