Annoying much!

Will update soon. Now m fudgin busy with exams. Actually i wrote somethin already but the system ws down when i tried to post it. Stupid jua toh.. Mental ku neh. Ive spent about half an hour of my life n ive just wasted it for no good reasons.

Cinta?

Cinta? Ahh.. Bingung aku dibuat nya.. Mengapa kita harus mengabaikan seseorang yg terlalu mencintai kita hanya kerana kita tidak menyukai nya atau menganggap mereka tidak lebih sbgai kawan? Mengapa begitu berat hendak meluahkan kata-kata cinta sedangkan ia boleh menenangkan ombak di lautan? Mengapa ada krisis cinta? Apa kah ini dugaan semata-mata atau adakah ini tanda bhawa cinta itu sudah pudar dan akan layu tidak lama lagi? Mengapa ia mengambil masa yang agak lama dan kadang-kadang sekejap untuk perolehi cinta? Adakah cinta ini adil? Pernah kah aku melukai hati seseorang yg amat mencintai aku? Apakah itu akan menggurangi perasaan cintamu terhadap ku? Hmmm.. Ku tak mengerti.. Ku harap kau akan menjaga hati ini seelok-eloknya.. Ku pohon kemaafan sekiranya aku agak terlambat sedikit hadir di sisi mu dan mengubati kerinduaan mu.. Aku harap kau tahu bahawa aku juga mencintai diri mu..

Surprise kah? Alamak! Terlebih sudah! (:

Wajah nya sering menghantui pikiran ku. Bgaimana harus ku luahkn sgala-galanya? Adakh aku akan berkesempatan untuk memberitahu ny isi hati ku? Adui.. Dalam sungguh cinta ku trhadap nya tetapi apa kn daya ku dia sudah berumahtngga. Wah.. Terlebih sudah.. Wawawawa. Mmm.. What shud i type here? Ahh! Kpada seseorang yg msh setia menunggu ku, aku menghargai pengorbanan mu sebgai insan yg sungguh ikhlas mencintai ku walaupun ku kerap melukai dan menghampakn mu.. Aku tahu kau amat terseksa.. Kerana itulah kau sering menyakiti hati ku, benar? Huhu cewah.. Luahan hati lagi neh (: mm.. Apa yg harus ku buat sekarang ini? Aku sungguh binggung.. Mujurlah ada mizah, rakan baik dan rakan kongsi ku.. Wawawawa.. Kmi telah bersetuju untuk membngun sebuah business fotografi (apa kena mengena nya dgn cerita ini? Wawawawa) permulaan bsness ini agak hambar tetapi kmi berjaya improve dgn menjadi kn diri sndiri sbgai models nya.. (wawawawa atu bnr~ blarian bh urg brunei berpusu-pusu minta gmbr d kadai kmi uh xp) ah! Dgn kesibukan ku berniaga,akhirnya aku dpt juga berhenti memikirkn masalah yg bersarang di hati yg lara ini.. Ku lihat jam dinding menunjukkn pukul 2 petang (cewah~ kn mengalahkn c mizah neh xp) ahh~ aku sudah terlewat utk menghadiri sesi prjumpaan dgn klien kami.. (kira otw to the place lah dh ne) aku keluar dari kereta dgn perasaan yg sgt berdebar-debar.(tiba-tiba nervous, ganjil sungguh.. Huhuhu) aku sperti tahu sebujur badan yg memblakangi aku, sdg duduk d tmpt yg aku spatutny akan bertemu klien tersebut.. Semakin aku menghampiri dia, dan melihat gerak geri nya, hati ku semakin berasa gembira, senang dan terasa gemuruh amat (eh? Indon tia.. Xp) mengapa aku rasa diri ku seperti telah lama mengenali nya.. Mungkin kah dia... yg amat mencintai aku dulu?... (kira pause lah neh ceta ku uh) tiba-tiba, stelah aku mengalami plbgai rintangan perasaan ketika menuju ke meja tersebut, 'hi..' si dia itu menyapa aku dan tersenyum.. Aduh.. Terhenti nafas ku seketika (eh.. Bukan mati eh.. Wawawa) 'selamat hari jadi harm!' sambung nya lagi.. Aku banggang krana si dia yg berada di meja tersebut rupa-rupanya adalah si mizah.. (eh.. Spoil eh.. Pikir th si dia yg menunggu aku atu xp ) nahh.. Rupanya surprise birthday party.. Aku sangat terharu kerana ramai kaum keluarga dan rakan-rakan ku turut berada disitu.. Sbnrnya aku terlupa bhwa hari itu adalah hari ulang tahun ku yg ke 24 tahun (cewah~tua dah ku. Huhu) namun begitu, aku amat menghargai usaha kmu wahai insan-insan yg menyayangi ku (senyum lebar neh xp) huhuhu

Somebody has to lose

Hari ane friday.. My friends are havin their gp exams. Hehe. I didnt take gp so jst rest dumah. Mm.. Talkin abt exams, i screwed up bsnss ppr1 *sighs* but surprisingly socio exams were quite ok. Hpfully il score well.. Mm.. Oh yeah, i got my tongue bit tadi. Ugh! Ada urg ngumpat x. I wonder who. Lalala~ dmlm i went out to yayasan w c 212 n decy. Bth dh na maen ddr uh. Syok! *winks* fyi, pnya ddr dpt di maen pkai pc o laptop pny.bt u hafta install it 1st n then bali d dncing matt. Hehe. Il seek 4 d installer nnt (my friend's got it).. Mm.. American idol's result ada dh. David cook won tis 7th season. David archuleta ws quite awesome bt hey, deal w it. Somebody has to lose. (david cook rocks!) huhuhu i knw ada urg sasak n dissatisfied abt the rsult xp btw kmrin pagi, mizah aka lady made me bkfs. Wawawawa. Bt i only ate satu cz was full jua.yth. Bt i appreciate it baby *winks* woah.. What else? Mm.. I cnt rmbr ler.. Huhu nnt post g xp

hehehehe.. lets sing along

MARIAH CAREY LYRICS

"Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

oh yeah.. this is the lyrics that ive been talking about =p lets sing along *leaps*

The forth time

Mmhm.. Ive got alot to share here.hopefully i can remember all of em stories.. Well, tis mornin i revised bsnss d cnteen.mizah came w her usual-serious facial expression wanting me not to bother her for awhile (mm.. i didnt disturb her cz i was busy scannin thru my bsnss notes jua) and azam dtg, havin his breakfast n dduk sma kami ja. Initially evytin was ok but c syazani the ugly arse dtg n mcm biasa tryina get attention from us. Hes so pathetic! He thinks by bullyin us we'd gv hm the desired full shitty attention but instead, we were all annoyed by him. He teased me tadi ' harm, napa ko mbca vigorously ane? Its so funny'.. I didnt reply a word cz i knw f i layan-ed him, we'd end up insultin each other w extreme foul words. And nasib ada my herion.. Cewah~ c mizah lah jd penyelamat *laughs* taus ea jadi mute td. na pndai sadar bh c syazani atu. Mmmhm.. Andg x loser ane cematu uh? (prove me wrong) =p mm.. Tadi my geo tutor, 4 d 4th times lecturing me abt how i must plan to get an A for him *sighs* man! Do u know i cant do it? Seriously, stop pressurizin me! Sanak eh.. And skewling tadi was really tiring (as it usually is) eh eh one thing lagi, i didnt get to come to syaza's bday birthday party on the 8th may coz tetydo uh.. Huhu. Tired bh.. Yth.. C ezun promised to make me french toast p she forgot.. AGAIN.. *sobs* how i wish someone else would make one for me *hinting* xp mmm.. Im missing c 174. Ea mcm namo layan gue lagi.. Antah ler.. Anyway, This is some lines from misha omar's song, just for you :
" ini kah balasan, yang harus ku terima? Kasih sayang yang ku curah kan, sayang mengapa begini? Apa lagi yang kau cari? Tidak aku mengerti, tega diri mu permainkan cinta ku~ takkan ku lupa, riwayat cinta kita, biar pun pahit, ku pasrah~ "
huhu corny? I know right. Lalala~ mm.. Mlm minggu saya just stayed at home. Imagine how boring it is! I must b patient.. Lapas As exams kita enjoy! Huhu. Btw, mama punya hp rusak. Yth i pinjam kn dia hp. Hehe. Contoh anak yg baek lah konon *flattered* mmm.. Apa lagi uh? Oh yes, syela texted me up suh transfer cdt.. But Sorry insufficient cdt baby x) mmm.. Why do i feel so used? Oh screw it! Huhu bodoh betul. Btw gp class was sumhow ok tadi although eyrbdy seemed so stiff n tensed. Well, nvm. At least kmi 'buat' kaja *giggles* eh i reali dont knw why m doin tis blog.. Mcm exposing my diary tah plg. I guess thats the intention, aint it? Bad eh tis thing. Huhu

Late late late!

Oh m soo early today. The exhaustion from yesterday masih overwhelm me *sighs* my dad had an urgent meeting so i was picked up real late from skewl.it was at 5.30pm (i finished my class at 2pm yesterday) bloody hell i waited for 3+hours. Thats nt funny! Ugh.. Mmm.. Nothin much to share here. Just, mmhmm.. I miss some people. I really do. Nanti th abis exams jalan w them. Hehe. Alright, m really busy now. Til next time.

Have i no right to say whatever i want?

Mm. Today has been a very stressful sucks ass day ever! My stdy group people stil hadnt finished their works, well, some n includin me had already. But really,its so frustratin. Coz d due date was suppossed to be last week but.... *sighs* fakrul, as usual, with his annoyin lame excuses didnt make an effort to at least type the notes. Instead he rather went out and bitchin around *exhales* woor.. I knw its wrong to say it but again, hav i no right to say whatever i want to say? Enough w that, i spent my afternoon time retyping notes by shirley until arnd 9pm. God, i cn barely walk now. My back n body ache. Mmm.. Eh eh.. I just found out that another friend of mine involved in an accident yesterday n now shes in d hospital, i think patah kaki nya (i havent visited her btw).. Td i went on9 msn skajap. I intended to release my tension but however i ended up with this so unhappy-bugged feelings.was offended by sumone :( g mlsh.. Slalu sarcastic. I knw its d nature but can that person atleast be less sarcastic sometimes? Its not funny man! mm.. N i was suppossed to had lunch w my lifetime bstfriend, mizah but i forgot to meet her td (m sorry beb.. I know u'll be readin my blog:p* hehe. Mmm.. I just got new songs in my fone - bye bye by mariah carey and always be my baby, male version by david cook, one of the contestant of american idol. Yes! I love these songs so much! *leaps* nanti tah il post the lyrics if got to find it. Hehe. Mmmm.. *sighs* m petrified that i wont be able to get brilliant grades 4 my upcomin As exams.. Ugh! Kusut ku eh.. Seriously, m nver get soo nervous f kan exams. Ane its jst different! Antah eh :s mm.. Btw i had fun talkin to zymah n mas td while waitin 4 ma dad to pick me up balik td.. Panat bh those gurls. I love the bitchy accent u made zymah! It was very funny! And the song too *winks* ehhh~ m tired udah. My eyes need some shut down neh. Til then.. *waves*