love, again.

honestly im so emotional right now. Only god knows why..
*sighs* ok~ moving on.. l suddenly thought about love triangle issue.. whose fault is it really? will it ever peacefully work? Is it human nature to have more than one emotional partner(s) at one time? why does this happen? does it happen because ov lacking ov attention from one side, boredom or lust? Is he/she being unfaithful if he/she has more than one partner that know about it but treat them the same?
Well Personally, i think it will work depending on several factors which include :
@ understanding
@ honesty
@ compromise
@ high level ov trust
@ a lot ov patience
and the list goes on..
But til when it lasts, depends on the people themselves.
Its their choice and happiness.. So who are we to judge?

like a glass you break my heart.

am not okay tonight. shit happened.

say to me things i wanna hear

hmm its just so weird when some people have the guts to come and cry to us saying that theyve realised their mistakes, yadey yaadey yaaadey~ but on our back, they just wouldnt stop trying to make us suffer.. I wont shed a tear for these kind ov people really.. why? coz i know its USELESS and a waste o friggin time.. Yes!!
Anyhoo, i know i shouldnt hold tis grudge forever but i just cant help it.. Am prepared.. I know what i'll do if what i imagined ever happens .. Afterall, god is MORE POWERFUL and FAIR..
To lady: dont worry abt me.. I mish you. I mish going to skewl and waitin fo u.. Huhu good memories~~

unexpected news from her.

despite ov all the tribulations ive been through, hers is even worse.. well, i must say the same reali.. BUT at least i learnt from past experience and she didnt unfortunately!
am talking about one ov my close friends.. As i see, life is like a piece ov clean white paper.. its us who should decide on how to paint and draw it w our own preferable colour, symbols, shapes etc.. whatever thats written or drawn will dictact our life literally.. In her case, she did it badly.. she had options but she chose to blow it.. i hope my poor gurl realisez her mistakes and learns to be responsible for what she did.. well, at least dont take things for granted..
All in all, her life is screwed!! Anyhoo, its already nearing april, i must find work and be independent! Just wish me the best ov luck guys.. And to lady, i salute u. Ure such a strong person. I just think i cant predict u anymore. seriously, who could sincerely laugh and stand on the ground not crying but feeling relieved when he/she just broke off? Huhu well, she did.. u did it!! Am jst wondering who u missing right now.. And mahal q??? I sense somethin fishy~~~ :] huhu is there somethin i should know about??

P.s i miss you, you, you & you..

my heart bleeds again :(

I have had enough. I have done a lot! Now im so confused.. I dont know who to believe anymore. I know i should be optimistic but i bet there will be more dramas coming up soon.

NO!!

I dont mumble or spit when i talk~ huhu random i know..
I dont have so much things to ramble here actually but as mentioned by dye on her latest post, there been a lot of self-accidents lately. Yes!! In fact i just witnessed one early tis morning whilst otw home from bandar.. it was scary.. Thank god am not really traumatized.. Oh before i leave, tonight i will be going to a friend's birtday party.. Hope theres food *duh~ of course there is* huhu i gained more fats.. :s
bh bh.. Assalam..

my hamsters DONT miawww~

i never thought having a pet(s) is such a hard work. Really, trust me it is one hell ov a job *wipes tears*
now one ov my female hamsters gave birth to 7 litter ov pups again.. *lurus ka englis saya ne?*scratches head* not that am unhappy, but tis will mean i have more cages to clean. *screams out loud*
thank god My voice is still ok. *clears throat* Huhu cant help but to be dramatic here for a bit. anyhoo, ada urg mengigau dmlm. It was fudgin funny.. Mum told me.. NOT! Scary would be the right word. Erk!
Ok am sleepy already. I thought tis week dapat jmp the rejects but apparently no planner.. So nada~ well yeah, next week? *looks at em gurls*
bbye~

.... MIA

Yes, i finally got my way back here.. i know u people missed me so much *perasan* huhu. wondering why i went m.i.a these past few weeks ?.. well actually ive been busy preparing things for my engagement ..................................................... *drum rolls* NOT!! *evil laughs* nada lah.. Meditating saja and thinkin of ways to get rid of hassles. Its like your house bh, the older it is, more renovation is required kan? so yeah.. am prepared..
Argh. I still havent got a job. No job means no dinero.. *sighs* being penniless sucks!! Random i know~ *change topic* Ok ok now i know the thing that am gona say will cause a rash to *laughs* and provoke some women/gurls out there but m jst so confused why most, but not all women plg, complain about inequality ov opportunity and sexism in workplace while in reality you see, there are more room ov opportunity for em. for instance: cd shops, they only hire female assistants and also in banks, its women that are more likely to get the interview or the job than men. Yes!! They tend to get job MORE easily than men NOWADAYS. Hmm.. Guess the world has changed huh? Afterall am jst unlucky, jobless guy whos wanting for a miracle to happen on one ov these days.. *wishful thought*


" sometimes revenge aint the sweetest thing you can do.. the time u took to hold a grudge, might have been the prefect time u could learn to forgive.. " - Harm '09


Hope to see my people soon esp lady, therejects and thee.. Tc.

Promises.

I wonder why is it hard for some people to keep their promises?and is it fair to keep ours while the counterparts fail to keep theirs? Why do u say promises in the first place when u know that u wont be able to fulfil it?wait, are u even trying?
Is taking a break help to improve the relationship or will it blow it?why do u say those things when u actuali dont mean it and in the end regret it?why do u turn the table around at ur partner when things seem gotten worse?is breaking up the best idea u could ever think for the both ov u when its obvious the hassle can be eradicated?

sometimes....

Yes! sometimes small matter can become gigantic to some due to lack ov compromising. Its like how one tiny cell collects another cells to eventually develop a whole complete organism.. But if the system lacks, then the development will be affected. Life sucks, definitely! we all should know that.
How i wish mine would be a lot simpler and easier. oh as if! Different people have uncommon solutions to overcome their problems. Some would say lousy things without thinking and regretin it in the end but the wise one always think deep before saying bad. So i learn from past experiences that decisions must be thought thoroughly, analysed and evaluated carefully coz we cant turn back time and that its easy to forgive but the scars will always remain...

what hurts the most

when the person you love neglects u, chooses his/her friends over u in any kind of situations such as during ur weakest time, when he/she cannot handle his/her stresses or temper and uve got to bear w it so he/she can peacefully get over it..

sucks.

I got so much things to ramble about in here. firstly, i love my hamsters and my baby rabbit, kiro. HAHA random i know~ secondly, i fleetingly hate some people. thirdly, i solemnly miss some people. fourthly, is it alright to be superstitious? should i wear an amulet o somethin to protect myself from any source of evil power? *faiz, ure needed to loose my puzzle-ness here. yes? HAHA since u commented on my 'love at first sight' post the other day so i thought u might as well comment on tis one also xp *
oh oh, lady, am so sorry that we couldnt make it to pantai muara yesterday. I knew u had a blast~
emm.. got lotsa things to be said here, but NOT that i run out ov time, its jst that i dont think its right to be amplified here. i got problems actually but... yeah shit happens... so, any queries just gimme me a hit.

bye, and seeya i dont wanabe ya~ xp